H. Roland J.

I know… It’s a very odd name, but it’s the one I chose at 18 years old and it kindda stuck. Roland is fine if we ever have cause to communicate in some way.

And… Don’t worry. It’s okay to think that I am “weird”, when you read this page. Most people do. It’s fine. I am used to it.

I am danish, which means I come from a different culture than most. Not only that – and this part is particularly for the danes who read this – I am from Svendborg, and my father’s family are from Ærø. To danes this will explain a lot. For americans; imagine a newyorker, who was raised by a redneck – that’s very similar.

When I was a young man I had a girlfriend, who was very much interested in exhibitionism. She had a dream of becoming a pornstar, and I have always been rather liberal in my sexual views. I am not going to go into details, but I have a very high “mental libido”, but physically I am almost asexual. It means I think a lot of about sexuality, but I don’t really do “the sex” myself. I don’t look at people and think “I’d like to…”, but rather I look at people and think “That person could be great doing…”. It’s a rare combination of sexualities, sure, but it is what has made my success for 3 decades.

On October 3rd 1993, just three days after my 18th birthday, my then-girlfriend and I shot a single scene for a german producer named Uwe, who had come all the way to Denmark to shoot two scenes with her – one with me and one on her own with toys and stuff. I asked Uwe if it was financially sustainable to travel from Berlin to Denmark just to shoot a few scenes with a girl, which he told me it was, but when I found out how much it cost him to travel back and forth every time he was shooting with danes I decided to give him an offer. If he paid me that amount for doing the work he didn’t have to spend the time travelling, and sure enough – he hired me on the spot to shoot any time he needed someone shooting in Denmark.

Working for Uwe I realized that I actually liked creating entertainment for others. I never liked the idea of being in front of the camera – still don’t, by the way! – and I started studying to become a short-/documentary film producer. I got my certification in 1996, and thought I’d continue educating myself a bit, so I got a similar certification as a scriptwriter in 1999. This lead to a conversation with Uwe about starting a danish/german production company, but unfortunately Uwe passed away from cancer soon after, before we got the company started.

I started working for a few danish companies until my father passed away in 2001. He left me a bunch of money, and I started my own production company soon after. It went well until another company offered me a job that I simply couldn’t refuse. In 2004 I shut down my own company and started working for someone else. A year later the company I worked for imploded due to mismanagement and interpersonal disagreement among the owners.

I worked freelance from then on until 2012, when the biggest men’s magazine in Scandinavia gave me a job as a producer and journalist. I “retired” in 2017 from the adult industry. I felt it lacked creativity and vision. My plan was simply to remove myself from the industry and see how long it would last without me – I thought it would hold on for about 10 years, but I was wrong. The industry in Denmark completely disappeared a few years later. It hasn’t recovered since then, not even with OnlyFans and similar platforms.

Currently I am out of the industry. I have had some health-scares that have completely reorganised my lifestyle. I spend more time in the backyard with dogs, that aren’t mine or being a “bonus grandpa” for a child I have no relation to other than they are living in the same building as me. I am currently living off freelance work and spending a lot of time with friends at a boardgame-café.

I seek happiness, not success.